daily whine

[lnr]

*sigh* I could just leave it at that really.

Not coping well at the moment with feelings of jealousy, despite there being no real reason to feel them. Can't work out whether occasional feelings of irritation at things people are saying are based on that or if I'd be irritated anyway. Bit of both I think. Feel like I'm not allowed to be cross about things almost, and don't feel I can talk about stuff properly here or anywhere. Not working well, not hungry, tired, weepy, and my own scales seem to think I'll probably stay the same or put on more weight this evening despite being good all week.

Just want to go hide under the duvet and not come out again until everything feels better, but I know in reality it doesn't actually help, and besides, I'm here and the duvet is at home. And no to be honest as much as they're appreciated a bunch of comments full of hugs and platitudes doesn't really help much either, and just makes me more cross at myself for whining. I just don't know what to do instead though.

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[angua.livejournal.com]

I understand what you're feeling, it sounds horribly like the way my head is working atm as well :/

So far the only thing that I've found that helps is to tell myself that it's OK to feel what I feel and to whine and rant if I need to and it will pass. I've lightened my mood by listening to music as today and I'm going to go to the pub after class and sod the sins, sometimes having a life is more important.

[lnr]

I'll probably see you in the pub then (well and at class first). Though I'll be counting.