daily whine

[lnr]

*sigh* I could just leave it at that really.

Not coping well at the moment with feelings of jealousy, despite there being no real reason to feel them. Can't work out whether occasional feelings of irritation at things people are saying are based on that or if I'd be irritated anyway. Bit of both I think. Feel like I'm not allowed to be cross about things almost, and don't feel I can talk about stuff properly here or anywhere. Not working well, not hungry, tired, weepy, and my own scales seem to think I'll probably stay the same or put on more weight this evening despite being good all week.

Just want to go hide under the duvet and not come out again until everything feels better, but I know in reality it doesn't actually help, and besides, I'm here and the duvet is at home. And no to be honest as much as they're appreciated a bunch of comments full of hugs and platitudes doesn't really help much either, and just makes me more cross at myself for whining. I just don't know what to do instead though.

Comments

[naranek.livejournal.com]

Well, *hugs* and *platitudes* anyway :-). Practical things I find help: having people around. Going and doing/talking about something else with people you like - watching films helps, bizarrely, though it's not a social activity. Playing cooperative computer games. Stuff like that. Being alone is bad, and being at work worse, so you're probably at your lowest right now. Let me know if you have IM and want to rant pointlessly .. it'll save me from murdering the group that's stolen more than half my development effort and is currently playfully wasting it on pointless crap whilst we lose money.

Whining is a perfectly sensible form of catharsis. If you find yourself feeling guilty, you could set up a whine group? Then we could all volunteer to be on it and you might feel less guilty...

[lnr]

Work cunningly manages to combine being work *and* being alone at the moment, as Caroline is out. Not that she's the chattiest of company at times anyway, but still. At least I shall be in the pub at some point this evening hopefully, even if I'm not drinking, and it'll be nice to see simont's new flat.

I find myself not much liking the idea of having different groups for different things, though a self-selecting one might be better than one which I chose myself. I just have a bit of a horror of talking about things behind peoples backs, which does tend to leave me feeling like I can't talk about stuff sometimes. Must work on it somehow.