Happy Birthday timeplease

[lnr]

I had a nice time at August's party last night, though there were some rather stressful moments and not everyone seemed ot be having the best of times, not least the host, which was sad. I discovered that I can't play the mandolin or the bass, and still can't play the guitar, but did briefly get something sounding like music out of Dom's sax. (fnar!). Lots of nice food and drink (oops). In fact so much lots of the latter that I really must apologise to Rachel for apparently telling her my entire life history, not sure quite how I got into that!

Hopefully will be celebrating with the karate graders this afternoon, once I hear how they've done. I might stay off the booze though.

Feel like I ought to stay off the food too after this week :-/ Nice dinner out with Mike Monday, nice dinner in on Thursday which was nearly as disastrously calorific, and then a slightly over quota dinner on Friday, but I dread to think how much I consumed yesterday, and I just don't seem to have much motivation to eat sensibly today, though I guess I'll just have to try. Oh well, even if I gain weight this week (weigh in tomorrow morning since I wasn't at home today) I'm still well down on the start of the year, and I still know I can keep going, so it's not the end of the world. It's just painfully slow going sometimes, and I just feel so *fat* sometimes.

And I wish I could make people happier. Andrew, August, Jan: they're all fed up in various ways and I can't seem to help and with Andrew at least I only seem to make things worse. I just don't know what to do.

Comments

Re: Hiss on the tape...

[j4.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry for snapping at you like that. I was drunk and twitchy and getting upset about other things and you just caught me at a bad moment. And then afterwards you were so angry I thought I'd just make things worse if I tried to say anything. :-(

And it was such a cool party until I started getting upset, & the getting-upset totally wasn't your fault, & I really wish I'd just managed to bite my tongue & not say anything because then I could have just run away and been upset somewhere else without spoiling your party.

I'm sorry. I don't know what else to say really. :-(

It's just somethin' we're gonna have to forget

[hoiho.livejournal.com]

Matches and kerosene.
Both edgy, no ones fault.
Don't worry about it.