things

[lnr]

Good things

Perdido Street Station (about halfway through), Starcraft, Scrabble, stewed apple. Odd recurrance of the intial S there. Also Richard being lovely despite me being so impossible to cheer up at times.

Bad things

Spent far too much of the day in bed feeling bored and pointless and moping. Need to work on something to do to get me out of that sort of rut. Perhaps some sort of craft-type project. I hate the way Richard is obviously being made unhappy by the state I'm in, but I can't see what to do about that other than to work hard at improving.

Otherthings

Talked to Caroline on the phone this morning, arranged to probably go in tomorrow afternoon and talk to her and James and see where we go from here. She's thinking of ways to try and make my work a bit more structured in order to make me better able to cope with it, get things done, and gain confidence and hopefully become more useful. Not sure if I'll stay and work all tomorrow afternoon or what. Nervous about it, but glad to be doing something instead of letting the world crumble in on top of me. Pills don't seem to be having any horrid side effects or miraculous cures, but it's early days and I wouldn't expect to see either for a while yet.

Hanging on in there, glad not to have an alarm clock set tonight. Hopefully I'll sleep better.

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[ewx.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[angua.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Have some more hugs.. I have tomorrow off btw if you end up at home and want to spend some time mooching. And I know a million other people have offered to lend ears and things but you can have mine too, and I have a cat with one eye. Not many other people can offer that.

Are you up for meeting B at the weekend? If you're around on either Friday or Sunday lunchtime we could all go and have some lovely lovely food somewhere.. I haven't told B this yet though :)

*huggles*

[simonb.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

If you're up for it I'm planning on getting covered in plasterdust on Wednesday evening.

[lnr]

I might well take you up on that, after dinner. See how I feel. Give me a bell on 07870 504806 some time this evening. I'll have to see what I can find in the way of old clothes :-)

Time to go ring Caroline then see about heading into the office this afternoon.

[lnr]

Only James is in and out of meetings this afternoon, so instead I've arranged to go in some time tomorrow morning and have a chat, and maybe stay and work if I'm up to it.

Feeling brighter today and intend to work on staying that way.

[simonb.livejournal.com]

'kay; I'll give you a shout around 7pm or so.

[taimatsu]

If you wanted ideas for craft projects, I have piles of things I do I could talk to you about :)

Stewed apple is good, definitely. My housemate made some recently with the apples from the tree in our garden and then ate it all herself, which I was quite annoyed about.

Doing things is good, too. Well done.

*hug* ?