Ug, me tired

[lnr]

Maybe it's the heat, maybe it's hae having to go back to work tomorrow, maybe it's the eating too much junk food, maybe it's the reading through old LJ posts *again*, but I have gone zog this evening. Need to perk self up somehow.

Spent the day mostly alternately geeking, reading, dozing in the garden in the shade, and dyeing my hair. Amused that I mentioned this when rjk got in and asked what I'd been doing and only then realised that he hadn't noticed. Good way into Unless by Carol Shields, which I am enjoying. And we have a to-do list for this evening at least. Even if we haven't done any of it yet.

The best thing about the last few days has been feeling like people do actually enjoy spending time with me, and like me and want me to be around, which I hadn't been feeling for a while. Particular thanks to Simon on Thursday, Richard on Friday and Duncan on Saturday afternoon. I do sometimes feel like I could just walk off the map and no-one would notice or care if they did, and having people pleased to see me makes one hell of a difference to that.

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[aimlessdesire.livejournal.com]

I do sometimes feel like I could just walk off the map and no-one would notice or care if they did, and having people pleased to see me makes one hell of a difference to that.

Me too. It was so nice going to someones party on saturday (late cos I was asleep all afternoon) and be greated with, I'm so glad you came, it's great to see you. I'm sure most of the time we forget to tell people how nice it is to see them, or how nice it would be to see them when making plans etc, and it really does make a difference.

[lnr]

Yaeh, I should make more effort to do it myself too.

[brrm.livejournal.com]

Need to perk self up somehow

I wish I were in the right city to offer you a warm sunset motorbike ride with light rain beginning to fall, like the one I just had.

[duncanneko.livejournal.com]

*throws nekos, pixie sticks and other sugar-related nekos in your general direction* perkmew! perkmew!

Ahem. Yes, indeed. And we're very pleased to see you. You should be seen more often *grins* Calling tomorrow? :)

[lnr]

Slimming class first, but so long as I'm not utterly ill feeling and shattered then I'll probably be along.

[j4.livejournal.com]

I do sometimes feel like I could just walk off the map and no-one would notice or care if they did

I feel like that all the time.

I do like you, and I do want you to be around. But (not that this is your fault) it has been awkward recently. I'm sorry.

(Mind you, at least you live with somebody who might notice if you left...)

[lnr]

It's OK, under the circumstances it would probably be strange if it weren't awkward.