Productivity

[lnr]

Things I have done this week:

• Tried to get hold of accommodation for Whitby in November, using Google and by ringing and mailing people
• Ordered a copy of my BA certificate from Oxford, having never got round to it before
• Rung Hertford and got them to send me the forms for my MA
• ordered new ink cartridges for the printer
• ordered new hairdye for myself, and a random gift for a friend, but tried to avoid spending much otherwise
• Moved some money from my current account to savings account, and contacted the latter about an error at their end
• changed my standing order into the joint account to reflect the fact rjk's now earning again and can contribute a larger amount again
• arranged to pay off my last credit card in full each month by direct debit, so now I can't get into real debt on any of them
• ordered a replacement recycling box from the council for the one that blew away or was stolen
• lots of washing and tidying and washing up, plus sorted through my clothes to remove all the ones I never wear or which won't fit
• More or less kept up with stuff at work, with some pretty good rearguard action against some nasty spamming tactics

So what I can't work out is why I still feel so useless and unproductive. I'm really struggling with the diet, and have a horrid feeling I might have put more weight back on this week, I'll have to wait and see tonight. I really *don't* want to weigh more than I do now in the longer term, even if I'm still not sure whether I really need to lose this one extra half stone that I'm trying to shift. I *like* being officially a healthy weight.

Perhaps it's just because I'm seeing so many relationships fall apart around me, and so many people unhappy and because I've stopped taking the ADs and Richard's feeling down too. If I'm not feeling better by the end of the month I think I'll go back to the docs and try again. And I've given myself another 6 weeks after tonight to either be close to reach 10.5 stones or if it's not working to sticj to 11 stones as my ultimate target instead. Hopefully I can avoid any more really bad weeks like this one has been foodwise. But I do really wish I could make Richard feel better because that would just lift such a weight off my mind. And just not being so tired would help.

Comments

[bopeepsheep.livejournal.com]

You sound like you're being a lot more productive and useful than I am, honey. Don't fret with the diet - even if you have put weight on it isn't the end of the world, and you can get back to where you want to be next week. The last bit is always the hardest to lose, and it might well take all six weeks. But you look great now!

Hugs.

[daneel-olivaw.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

It sounds like you've been very busy. It also sounds like you're going through an entirely *normal* just-come-of-ADs low, and are pushing yourself hard in an attempt to compensate. Take care of yourself, okay? And giz a shout if you need a hand with WGW --- it is starting to sound like more hassle than originally predicted. :-/

*more hugs*

[jiggery-pokery.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Sounds like an excellent week to me - far more productive than mine! - but I know that that doesn't necessarily make anyone feel better about it. I know that other people's moods can be more important than anything else, too.

For what it's worth, Whitby is a (very nice) train ride away from Middlesbrough. Unfortunately there are only about four or five trains each way and the last one goes quite early, so you'd have to miss out on the evening entertainment.

[naranek.livejournal.com]

Wooo: Busy bunny :-). I always feel unproductive, irrespective of how much I get done (though maybe getting into work at 12:30 today justified it - bad /me).

Lots of relationships are falling apart at the moment, but equally, lots are going fine, and I'm sure lots are starting. Doesn't mean anything, and never has.

If you need people around, I'm sure there are lots of us who haven't seen you in ages and would like to? Equally, ranting/wibbling/just collapsing on people can be arranged (memo to self: buy beanbags).

[lnr]

Actually part of the thing is feeling like I have no *time* at the moment: I seem to be dashing from one thing to another and still not finding time to see people I'd like to. It'd be nice to see you again sometime soon.

[ex-lark-asc.livejournal.com]

The tiredness and inexplicable down-ness sounds very much like what happens when I forget my ADs to me. I wouldn't read too much meaning about the global state of your moods into it *hugs* As I understand it, coming off them actually _produces_ a sort of artificial down as your brain chemicals adjust, so it might be worth seeing how things go over a longer time.

And if you're coming to the pub tonight I might be able to show you something that'll reassure you not everyone's relationship is on the rocks :)

[lnr]

Longer than a month? Given I stopped taking them towards the beginning of this month or thereabouts.

Unfortunately even suspecting it's the (lack of) pills doing it doesn't make me feel any better, and it doesn't do anything to make Richard feel better either. And I never noticed any particular side effects while I was taking them. Stopping might partly explain the difficulty with weight lately mind, given they seemed to give my weight loss a bit of a boost when I started them: but that's probably just wishful thinking.

And no, I know plenty of people have relationships which are just fine, doesn't make seeing the ones which aren't any less heartbreaking though.

[naranek.livejournal.com]

Check :-). Annoying, innit? Cool: I'll check with E. n see if we can't manage dinner or something (I prolly ought to ask her before taking over the house for the evening :-)).