Wimping out

[lnr]

Once again I don't have the energy to make it to London, so Pete's will have to celebrate without me, though I'm sure there'll be lots of lovely people to help. I even have something to wear now, since my new black PVC mini-skirt arrived, but never mind, I'll save it for another occasion. Richard might make it out to Girton, but I'm feeling more like staying in. At least I know I'll get out of the house tomorrow for Shrek, and that should be fun. And I've still been enjoying my book, a terrible game of chess and some buffy.

Part of it is just tiredness, but I think another part just doesn't want to see people. I don't feel like I'm very much of an addition to any party. Finding it hard to have anything much to say to anyone. And while you can get round that by lots of snogging some of the time it just feels crass. I'm a bit sick of only feeling validated if other people find me attractive, as nice as it is.

Comments

[j4.livejournal.com]

Aww love! You are definitely an addition to any party. And I haven't even snogged you for ages so you know it's not just that. At least I hope you know it's not just that.

I'll give you a lift to Girton if you want, at least that might help with the tiredness -- I think I'm going to go but not stay too late. It'd be lovely to talk to you. *hugs*

[lnr]

Thanks lots. It's always nice to talk to you too. Thanks for the offer of a lift, but since we're only just thinking of dinner you go on without us. I'll see how I feel after food and try and make it along. But if I wasn't going to make it without a lift I wouldn't be much cop once I got there.

Order of the Phoenix in paperback just jumped of the shelf at me in Tesco.

[j4.livejournal.com]

Um, no idea when you posted this (LJ says 11:20!) but we've only just eaten now (8pm) and I've yet to get changed... so phone if you change your mind, we'll still be faffing for a while yet probably.

if I wasn't going to make it without a lift I wouldn't be much cop once I got there.

I find that it's more the other way round for me -- I mean if I have to use up lots of energy getting somewhere I probably won't be up to much when I get there, but if I can get a lift or find a stress-free way of getting there I'm more likely to be perky when I'm there. IYSWIM. IME. YMMV. HAND. HORSE. ETC. :-)

[imc.livejournal.com]

no idea when you posted this (LJ says 11:20!)

You have to add eight hours (so 7:20pm). It's probably buried deep in the FAQ somewhere.

[feanelwa.livejournal.com]

I get that too - if I'm not going to take any drugs, probably not going to snog anybody and not going to talk about computers or the history of the novel, what's the point in me being there? Usually to talk to the other people who aren't going to do those things. There will probably be one or two other people there who aren't going to have a lot to say about the main subjects of conversation though. But it would have been good to have another member of the "What?" club.

[lnr]

It's not so much that they bore me as that I don't have anything to add, or anything to talk about myself. Very short on conversational skills. But I'm sure I'll get over it, I usually do :-)

[acronym.livejournal.com]

Well, I like seeing, and talking with, you, and (though I'm a fine one to talk) I think you might be having an episode of being about as good as I am at judging what people think of you.

"Addition to a party"? You're a friend, and one I value highly, and that's lots.

[acronym.livejournal.com]

Well, I like seeing, and talking with, you, and (though I'm a fine one to talk) I think you might be having an episode of being about as good as I am at judging what people think of you.

"Addition to a party"? You're a friend, and one I value highly, and that's lots.

[juliet]

Sorry you didn't feel able to make it, would have been good to see you, but glad you had a nice evening in the end anyway :-)

(there was actually v little snogging at this party, I think... or maybe I just missed it all!)

[lnr]

*laugh* Not much snogging at the one I was at, other than one goodnight kiss. Glad you had a good time too.

Are you planning on going to Kake's party next w/e or E-J's? Be nice to see you.

[juliet]

Kake's party: briefly, Sat afternoon for a little construction/eating of food. Will be running away before dinnertime in order to not get drunk & stay out too late. E-J's - nope, sadly, am requiring of one reasonably quiet weekend at home this month! Also can't afford train ticket to Cam atm... [sigh]