Work

Need to stop distracting self. No more LJ from work, comment emails are being automatically moved to a different folder so I won't see them any more unless I go look. No more irc from work. Will try shift news-reading to sfere as well. No more online computer games. If I want a five minute break I have a book. If you really want to contact me home and work email addresses and mobile number are in memories.

Tired now

Occupational Health appt took me through til 10, worked pretty solidly with a stop for a chat with Paul and a brief trip into town for a coffee and to pick up Em's Radiohead tickets at 1ish, then left at 4 to head to the doctors. Long wait, he agreed doubling the dose might help, thought I might be right in my preference to stay at work trying to fix things, said he'd right a letter referring me for a psychiatrist's appt, and said definitely avoid the booze on the higher dose of pills. It's been the most productive day I've had at work in a long long time, but I don't know how long I can keep it up. And I just keep feeling terribly bleak and empty whenever I stop to think for too long. Never mind, will just keep working at it. Killing time now before I go to the pub, and trying to feel like I still want to.