Sort-of progress

[lnr]

Haven't talked to James, but have talked to Caroline. Admittedly it was at her instigation not mine, after realising yesterday that some of the routine stuff was beginning to get neglected. But we've at least talked a bit about how to make sure that if I'm not in a state to do it that this is clear so that it can get done by someone else instead of just getting left. We also talked about the fact that it's not going to be an easy process, and that I'm not just going to be better some time soon, and the conversation has reassured me a bit that even if it is a long-term process they're still keen to try and get me there. For the time being, anyway.

I don't feel like I deserve it in a lot of ways. And I'm feeling a bit drained now, and still tired. But it's still all a bit better than yesterday.

Comments

[j4.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Of course you deserve it. Glad to hear things are getting better even if only slowly.

[nja.livejournal.com]

I finally made a phone call this afternoon to someone from Mencap who has been trying to get in touch since Christmas, and had got to the point of ringing various people who he thought might know me (correctly, as it turned out). I was avoiding something which I felt I just didn't have the time or energy to sort out (and I'm still not sure I do), which isn't unusual. In the end we had a lovely relaxed chat rather than the tense accusatory conversation I was expecting, and I felt much better when I'd done it. Charity Commission on Monday, I think. Sometimes you can get so anxious about people's responses that you forget they are never going to be as terrible as your own worst fears. It's not "sort-of" progress, it's progress, and you can build on that.

[k425.livejournal.com]

I suspect that not feeling you deserve it is very much part of not being well. You do deserve it.

[rmc28]

*hugs* You do deserve it.

'A bit better than yesterday' is going in the right direction.