I must be feeling better

[lnr]

My brain seems to be working again. Though not in a terribly useful way. I feel hopeless and useless and like everything wrong with my life is pretty easily attributable to my own laziness and cowardice and self-interest. That it has been for years. And I can't see a way out. My job, my degree (and the previous versions of both), my weight, my finances. They could all be fine if I wasn't so lazy about all of them. And I know it's partly depression, but the depression isn't what got me here in the first place, even if it's what stops me getting out.

Should I just quit my job? Or out and out tell them to get a move on and fire me? I need the money really, and I don't see what other job I could get that would pay as well but wouldn't be at least as bad in terms of me getting anything done. I hate it. I hate being a complete failure.

Comments

[aldabra]

Don't quit. Do actively look around for things that might be an improvement. It's easier to get into a new one if you're currently in an existing one. (As opposed, for example, to having been a full-time mum for years and having a toddler in tow... 8-) ) Is your current one in the University? Must be some scope for sideways movement there.